One Step Closer

About a month ago, I pulled out my guitar from our closet, dusted it off, tuned it up, and started playing it for my kids. It had been sitting in my closet for an entire year, and I was tired of seeing it tucked away underneath my dress shirts, wondering when I would have time to play it.

For this past month I have left the guitar in my living room and in sight, instead of hidden away. As a result, it’s always within arms reach, and the calluses are back on my fingers as I’m writing music again with my guitar.

I wish I had done this all last year. A few songs have been in the works, but one stands out as my favorite among the others. It’s called “One Step Closer.”

If you’re a parent, more than likely before you go to bed, you check on your children as they sleep quietly in their beds. It’s one of my favorite moments with my children. And not just because it’s one of the few times they are quiet… There is such a feeling of peace watching one of your little ones sleep.

It’s difficult to describe, and I often take some time to ponder in that moment. I think about their day and what they did. I think about their personal progression with their behavior, their interests, their problems, their joys. They are experiencing life in such an interesting way, living with grown ups who maybe don’t understand them or get frustrated at them, and then turn around and embrace them and love them. Most days they seem to go up and down in their emotions so quickly and frequently. They go from happy and dancing one minute, to crying and screaming the next. Being told “no” as they experiment and push their limits. Being rewarded for good behavior. Forgiving quickly and loving you even when they are sad or mad at you. While we as adults may have more experience on this earth, children certainly understand how to approach life better than we do. Finding joy in the simplest things, and loving unconditionally.

These are some of the things I ponder as I watch my children sleep. Especially my daughter Zoe, our oldest child. She has spent the most time with us, and every day she learns so much, makes me laugh, and amazes me. As I watch her sleep, I think about her future and who she will become. I feel like she can do anything. I want her to do EVERYTHING. I want her to share what she has with the world, because I feel like she has so much to offer. I often wonder what she dreams about at night, and if she can hear me whispering to her that I love her, or feel the gentle kiss I give her. Maybe not, but I like to imagine she can.

And I know it seems far away, but one day I won’t be able to go in at night and check on her while she sleeps. I will miss that.

But for now, every time I go in and say goodnight, at the end of a lovely day, I feel that I have taken one step closer to her heart, and her to mine.

I wrote the lyrics to this song with Zoe, meaning that I wrote a lot of different lyrics and asked her to choose which ones she liked. This is what we decided on in the end:

“Come along with me,
It’s time to sleep,
At the end of a lovely day,
The silent lights,
Are a sanctuary,
For my soul is at peace away,
As your quiet sigh calms the troubled world,
The stillness it brings to me,

Takes me one step closer to your heart,
Nothing is in our way,
Some day we’ll be miles apart,
Dreaming of yesterday,
Take in this moment,
My love is here to stay,

Come along with me,
As I fall asleep,
At the end of a lovely day,
Even in my dreams,
I can hear you speaking to me,
As you kiss my face,
I know that you care and I am loved,
Each word that I feel you say,

Takes me one step closer to your heart,
Nothing is in our way,
Some day we’ll be miles apart,
Dreaming of yesterday,
Take in this moment,
My love is here to stay,

Even if I fall asleep and you’re away,
I can keep you in my dreams, each word you say

Takes me one step closer to your heart,
Nothing is in our way,
Some day we’ll be miles apart,
Dreaming of yesterday,
Take in this moment,
My love is here to stay,

Now and forever,
My love is here to stay”

I love you Zoe.

And my love is here to stay.

 

2 Comments

  1. That’s awesome Mikey. You are so good, as song writer and parent. Trouble is, one day she’s gonna break your heart when she falls in love with a BOY! Take it from me! So proud to have you as a son. Dad.

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